最后一个月 ;(

时光飞逝..
2010年就酱到了尾声了,
为啥我的18岁过得如此的快?><
我不想就酱告别我的18岁~
回顾今年,
可以说很多事发生,
也可以说没什么事发生..
LOL,我也不懂是怎样==

首先最深刻印象的莫过于进NS,
我临去前的那个情景到现在我还是清清楚楚..
去到第一个星期的情景,
从害怕到认识新的朋友..
一起笑一起哭一起承担一起分享,
那种从对种族有保留直到可以抱在一起的感觉,
依然很深的刻在心里面..
其实进营并不可怕,
那两个多月真的获益良多,
真的没有后悔当初选择进这个营.
真的有很多美好的回忆 ;)

姐妹们,
我们的感情今年似乎好了,
虽然我们大家各有各忙,
但也许大家都成熟了,
所以即使分开异地..
不经常见面,
我们还是可以维持我们的感情.
但人大了,
总要为自己打算..
说真的,
听到大家要离开这里心里真的很矛盾,
开心,
因为看见你们有自己的目标了,
难过,
因为你们走了我就没了最好的姐妹在身边.
平时就只参你们,
都走了,
那我就剩自己一个了 T^T
你们对其我来说其实也很重要.
因为我就只信你们.
无论怎样我希望我们能一直是最好的姐妹.
谢谢你们在我有事的时候守护着我,
让我知道我不是一个人❤

做了快一年的量地官,
终于我也找到自己有兴趣的东西.
但是这个兴趣需要很有耐性，
要随时准备被狗抓伤咬伤..
还要偶尔温柔偶尔凶..
必要时还要对着它们碎碎念==
在工作的时候..
偶尔对自己很有信心,
偶尔会怀疑自己.
度过两位偶尔会觉得受不了..
但是我知道只要我坚持就一定会成功.

至于最爱的人,
不知不觉一起都好多个月了,
第一个让我变得那么厉害的男人,
有好几个难关都是他陪我过的.
真得很感激他一直都在.
也感激他包容我的一切..
我希望我们能一直走下去 ;)

❤

dear hubby,
i know i'm hot temper recently.
sorry cause i always spoiled ur mood.
thx for staying beside me and never give up.

i love you so much and u're my everything.

更新 ;D

啦啦啦..
终于舍得死来更新了.
这两个星期发生了什么似乎又忘光光了 ><

有两个星期了,
我跟姐妹们有两个星期没聚会了.
那天睡前按电话里的照片,
看回在毕业前拍下的照,
回忆起很多事情,
这间待了⑤年的学校..一所不好不坏的学校,
充满了我们的回忆,
曾经的快乐不快乐..
从幼稚的我们变成越来越成熟..
一切一切都还可以说是清晰的.
现在各自都有东西忙,
做工的做工,读书的读书..
真的好想回去读书的时候,每天见面.
朋友不会少,但知心的有几个?
从来我都只相信那几个.
外面的朋友并不是不可靠,
也许我的自我防卫很强..
要我相信真的很难.
谁会在你面前笑嘻嘻,背后插你几刀的真的很难看懂.
所以说,最信的还是那几个 ;)

工作上越来越有挑战性,
要做的东西真的越来越难,
对我这种那么迟钝的人来说简直是难
有时候真的很fed up..
对自己失望><
但是当可以handle到的时候就觉得还蛮有成就感的.
现在回到家每天想的都是怎样剪怎样弄,
恐怕就来连发梦都要梦见了 o(>﹏<)o

现在是凌晨四点多,
在金宝陪着那个臭男人 ;D
今天出去了一整天,
一直吃吃吃..
啊~~又不懂增几重了 ><
下午和男人去西湖, 那边风景真的超赞的说,
当心情不好的时候去那的话我想会舒服很多 :)
有时候会想,
一个可以给你很多物质, 但常会有争执的男人
和
一个他不富有, 但他有⑩块钱也会选择给你⑨块钱的男人,
那个比较好?
无可否认,
哪个女人不想自己要什么就有什么的?
但其实..真正的快乐是来自什么?
我的男人,
我知道他会是后者 ;)
❤

近况 ;)

一切都过去了,
雨过天晴了.
我们复合了,我男人回来了.
还变成很好的男人回来了.

从来都没想过我们可以一起回,
我以为这次真的完了..
但是原来他是那么的爱我.
SIBEH 感动的说.
我想我怎样也不会忘记他为我做的.[偷笑ing]

话说回来..
我真的很感激我的姐妹们,
在我最需要她们的时候她们一直陪伴着我.
我真的很爱你们 :$

在过去的一个星期..
跟姐妹们到处去..
第一次跟Carmen姐去Clubbing..
但是airport真的sibeh闷咯.. ==
跟她们一直拍照..
好久都没一起出去玩跟拍照了 ;)

第二天和姐妹们去strawberry moment,
那边真的很不错..
第一次吃草莓火锅,超正的说. ;D
晚上和男人发桥,
又去过airport ==
又是闷的咯..坐了一下就闪人了..
过后在de garden到处走..那边气氛真的很好 ;)
男人真的变了,
对我比以前更迁就了^^
那天补习回来的时候,男人突然拿了个东西出来..
原来他买了两只乌龟给我哦..
开心到我啊.. :$$
谢谢你啦男人 :**

昨天开始学宠物美容的东西了,
第一天真的是SIBEH累咯..
站到腰骨都痛 ><
但是也总算学到东西啦^^
今天学冲凉跟剃毛..
超紧张 ><
那个狗又欺负我一直动来动去..
幸好哪里的人帮我..不然不懂要做到几时.
未来还有半年要学..希望快快过了它.. ;)

男人啊,
谢谢你对我的迁就+疼爱.
爱你多多啊❤

不舍

分开了好几天,
刚有机会可以复合的时候才发现,
原来我们已经回不去.
为什么深爱着却无法回去?
你变了,我知道..
你变得很好了..我都知道..
可是为什么？

我们的一切我都无法忘记,
一幕幕的在浮现..
忍着眼泪想把一切慢慢写出来,
可是眼泪很不听话..
一滴一滴的掉在键盘上..
我知道你并不是不爱我..只是想我快乐.

有好多好多的不舍..
信息一封也不舍得删掉,
但再也不敢去看..
那种痛我真的承受不了.
谢谢你的好.
我会好好记住.
我们都要好好过,都要幸福.

姐妹们，我好需要你们.
只要和你们一起我就可以短暂的忘记我的一切.
谢谢你们一直在我身旁.

华语篇 :)

一直以来都用英语来写博客,
其实都只是因为一个人..但从今天开始,
我的博客就知属于自己,
不需要迁就着谁.
:)

终于,我们还是分开了.
在这段期间..其实也许大家都知道问题的存在..
只是大家都试着去无视它.
我们深爱过,珍惜过,
其实已无遗憾.

我还是会想他,还是会想起我们曾经的一切.
只是这一切都是过去了.
他带给我的回忆,我会一直一直的记住.
我不知道还会爱多久,只是这一刻是真的还惦记着.

我不知道永远有多远,
更不相信永远这两个字,那是最假的谎言.
我不喜欢承诺,许下的承诺有多少个是真的实现的?
承诺只是个很儿戏的东西.

我的好朋友们..谢谢你们一直在我身边。
我很好,我不是小孩子了..
不需要担心了..
我们只不过是选择了让大家更好过的方式.


那一刻,其实并没有在朋友和情人之间作选择..
我只不过选择对我们的爱情诚实..
就算挽留了我们也不会好过..
那倒不如选择现在放下.
这对我们会是我们最好的结局.
相爱但不在一起,我学懂了.

我希望当你有问题的时候还是会找我.
我希望不是情人还是能帮上你的忙.
谢谢你,让我长大和变得坚强..
你是第一个可以改变我的人.
我会一直记住你的好<3

Secondhand Serenade-Your call

Life is a maze.We won't know what will happen in future.

What i want to do is try to cherish what i had now.
There have not much things happened recently,
but seem like i changed much in a short time.
I dunno what is the main cause make me changed.
Sometimes really fed up with my life.
I'm tired.

Well,will start my new life next month.
I wish everything will be fine.

I'm waiting for YOU, for your call.

i do love you much❤

darl's sem break+bla bla bla

Went to singapore+indonesia+johor while darl sem break.We have lot of fun there and Non-stop buying things.It really happy that can shopping everyday but very tired too. >.^

took it in ferry❤

it very tired that need to take bus and ferry to another place,but feel doesn't matter when darl beside me.We keep chat and play in the bus.It really memorable.

We stick together 24/7 in this three weeks..i really appreciate it.Maybe many things happened in this three weeks, happy. sad. fed up and disappointed.But we still love each other deeply.Darl always said that the way we love different with other people.Maybe that's true.I wonder why i can changed for a guy so much.Can't find out the reason why love him so deep or maybe there have no reason.

He need to leave me and back to kampar again.I didn't cry front of him,but i cry badly in the bottom of my heart.I wish he could stay here..i wish could hold him tight and dun let him leave when he said bye to me.I feel miss him from the moment he leave.I miss every moment with him.I really miss him badly.Keep telling myself must be tough.I dun wan him worry me and i know i can do it.Will be wait for the next sem break and travel again.


There have no one perfect in this world.Everyone have their weakness.True friends will not leave us because of those weakness.My sisss,i appreciate that we all still belongs together after many argument or other things.Distance was not a problem for us.Our heart will still gether.Sister forever❤

waiting for you ❤

Darl came back for few days last week.He wanna came back revision and i know he wanna see me.I did something that make me feel very regreted and guilty to him.I let him lost the study mood and he just acc me those days.I really very sorry about that.I wish he can pass all the subjects in final exam.

Well,i need to wait 10 days only can meet him again.I really miss him alot but this time i'll be patiently and wait him back..i dunwan make him can't study again.We can go travel after this 10 days and my sis will coming back for three weeks too..i really very excited with it ;D

I look to the calendar everyday..10 days seems like so short..but dunno why it very long for me.I really miss him like hell.Urggggg ><
I can feel that Dear love me more and more and treat me more and more good..so that i decided to be a good wife..hoho XP
I never love a guy deep as him.He changed me.I failed to let go for N times.He is the one i need.We're decreed by fate❤❤

lifey :)

Weeeee..darl purposely back ipoh pass my birthday with me last thursday and he have no class at friday..yahooooo~so that he can acc me more ^^

Darl plan to have a small celebration for me..but finally cancelled dy cause i cannot celebrate.Anyway..i still have a happy 18 birthday with him.How we pass that day?It was a SECRET XP

L.O.V.E

Gathering with my beloved babe saturday..xixi..i really like to chit chak with them.There have endless topics between us....and and and..my Leong Hok Yan give me a present that day.HoHo..

Tadahhhhhh~

it so cute right?thanks her for giving me this..she said want me smile always..hoho..sweet her.I put it in my room and see it everyday..haha..make me everyday also feel so miss her :$ sometimes feel like wanna tell them every sad things..but it just like already forget what i sad about when i meet them.Life being colourful because of them :)


Well,i have a new target for my life.I wanna study for pet groomed..but maybe need go kl for it.Hmmmm~mummy and darl must be very worry if i go so far for study.What should i do?I really dunno can how :'( Wish can study here. ><



Darl's Final exam coming,may not back for three weeks..really sad bout it.I really miss him so muchh..I want go find him but i scare i'll disturb him study.Sometimes i really feel wanna ask him dun care anything and just back to me.I know it so selfish and childish..but i really very suffer without him..but i just think it when i sad..i know i won't do it and won't let him do it.I'll just wait and wait and find a chance to meet him.Hope he fine there.I should be more mature.Should understand that we must sacrifice for our future.I never jealous others that how sweet they are because i know the way we love is different.❤

outing :)

OPSS..birthday coming but imma in sick for those days.Every years same.Sighhh~
Anyway,it not a big deal for me.As long as i still alive,i think it's enough for me.

Have my dinner with my Darl at Wong Kok last friday.WOOOW~there have many delicious foods and drinks there.Take a long time to think wat i wan order and darl was impatient of it :$

Going to dad's kennel on the next day.Damn like to go there cause there have many doggie.Weee~i really like dog much ;D
Sing K with Frens at night.Hmmm..actually supposed to have more peoples that night..T^T
Anyway..we still enjoy and have lot of fun there.Keep laugh and laugh there.Darl keep hug me there.Owhh~imma so obsessed with his hug.It so sweet for me even just hugging each other.

sweet kiss from him ❤

my kiss for him❤

Darl is singing Beside me❤

Go TONG SUI GAI have supper after sing K. After that go "long gai" with marcus and his gal :)
Back home around 4am++..Woots..long time didn't back home so late dy.What a happy day :D


Darl,I want sweet with u till the end.Till we both old and drop all the teeths.I dunwan argue with u,wanna stick with u all my life.❤

Sisters,miss u guys alot..hope can meet soon❤

AUGUST

Today was the second day of AUGUST.Wondering why time pass so fast.Birthday is coming..hope can pass with HIM and THEM.Unfortunately that i can't have a big celebration for my sweet 18 birthday.It's okay to me that can't celebrate..i aldy used with it.

Gathering with my besties last saturday,every saturday is the time for us to blah out our sadness or hapiness.I really enjoy with them..True and forever friends.We stay beside each other when the other one in trouble.Can cry front of them without feeling shame or embarrassed.Hmmm..there have many unhappy things happened recently..was heartache and worry alot when i saw my besties get hurt.Girl,I hope you'll be fine.

Many people keep asking me about wanna continue study or work.urggg~i really fed up with that.Anyway..i know my besties is worrying too..I just wanna rest and enjoy my holidays now and I'll give myself a limit.Don't worry,I won't forget my DREAM and lost myself.Sometimes maybe can't let go the chance that meet you all.Was just worrying can't gethering with u guys as i want.

LOVE,can make you happy but can hurt you deeply too.Everyone was afraid with it but obsessed with it.LOVE,need hold by two person.Don't simply say I LOVE YOU if you can't do it.

sick+trip

Ahaa~around 2 weeks++ din update blog dy..was freaking lazy and sometimes nothing let me update.My life is freaking bored at weekdays.Hmm~that's why i hope darling always here,so that i won't feel boring.

By the way,i gastric till gonna die last thursday.I think i eat too much that night.Was feel a little gastric before i sleep.I take no notice of it.Around 3am++,i pain till can't sleep and started vomit.It make me so suffer and i'm gonna cry.At 5am++,grandma saw me still vomiting there so she woke mummy up and ask mummy take me to hospital.I was freaking scare that need to overnight at hospital.Huuuu~Luckily they just give an injection.After that the nurse call me rest there for awhile.Back home and sleep after that.
Darling is coming back on the next day.Actually i dun wan let him know before he reach here,cause he will rush back for sure.but at last he know dy.He come and stay beside me for whole day.I feel better after saw him :) He back home and have dinner with his family at night,his dad ask him bring me go..but i'm in sick :'( I feel like less something when he is not around.Hmmm..but darling said he will come to acc me next morning.Actually i already feel better on saturday,but i still need to rest at home.Was planning go genting on Sunday with family..but i dunno either can go or not.I take care myself very well and sleep early that day so that i can go genting on sunday :)

Was so excited on sunday.Early in the morning i already woke up and prepare.hahas..Can't wait to go genting with darling^^
We out at 7am and go kampar take my bro and his girl friend.
We reach genting around 10am++..I go buy tickets with dear and cousins then started play at out door.yahoooo~

they have o much people today,but it seems like want rain ><

skipp~

took it when waiting for play games<3

after we play few games,it really rain..oh gosh man.Cold like hell.Hmm..we go indoor and go into BELIEVE IT OR NOT. darling was so interested to it. ;)
After that we have our lunch at MC'D with mummy them.We go outdoor again after finished meal.It still raining...HMMMM~
dear said wan to win somethings to me,he tried many times and use many money with it.I was very sweet but at the same time very heartache for the money ><>

skippp~

was back around 5pm.hmm..actually still have many games haven play,but rain.><
GOOD BYE genting~

Dear is worrying about me because of something.Maybe i really dun understand..but i really heart you so much and will just heart you more day by day.I dun like argue,I like to laugh with you.I just want a simple life with you.I just want to be with you.I promise will protect myself and avoid from DANGER.Thx for you caring and loving always.I will hug MOMO so tight every night.I HEART YOU,TAN KAH WENG.❤


ps:My sisters,i miss you guys alot ;)

Be mature

Time pass so fast.Today is the last day of june.Sometimes..i really scare bout it.I dunwan become old >< I hope can growth up faster when i'm still small but when i'm 18..i hope time can stop here.Everythings is PERFECT for me now..my lover,friendship,family and life.Can please just stay here?I scare i'll lose one of them one day.I'm afraid of death.I scare i can't be with all my beloved anymore.I really do love them very much.Feel so down sudddenly but i dunno why.My sista, i miss you guys alot now.I hope can chat with you guys now. :'(

Well..today i wait my man for WHOLE day..damn bored.I know he is very toilsome and stress there.Heartache to see him cannot sleep well because of the stress.I become more and more mature.I didn't complain anything while wait him.I know now is not the time to like a child complain anything and argue or blame him.I know he will hope to stay beside me 24 hours too if can.But we had to face the reality..he need to study and i know his dad want him to study hard there.I choose to be mature and understand him,choose to be more patient to wait him.As a wife,i should let him be relax when with me but not stress when with me.This is the best way to keep our relation till the end.

I will pray for your exam and presentation moro.GOOD LUCK
I miss you so damn much.I miss your hug.I miss your kisses❤
2 more days you will back to me :)

PASSED my car test :)

Yam cha with all my beloved on last saturday..wow..we have insufficient time to finish our topic.We're having less and less time to meet now.Everyone is busy for work and study..i hope can back to school time.We can chat everyday when school day :( I really miss them alot when i'm alone.
TRUE fren is hard to find..there are too many complicated people now,it's hard to know what they're thinking..i cherish my main frens-Hyan,Carmen,Milky,Nikkie and P.shan.I love you guys alot.

Well..i've passed my car test today.I was quite nervous before the test start.Thx god that i've passed.Dear purposely ask his fren to fetch him back from kampar and celebrate with me.SWEET one..he like care the result more than me and happy till cannot concentrate on study when i told him i passed.My sor dear..I really heart him more and more.THX for everythings.I really appreciate it.❤

L.O.V.E

Dear gave me a surprise on Friday.His class suppose end at 10.30am,but till 11am he also didn't text me.I was freaking worry him.It was too many accident now days and somemore his car have some problem.I try to be patient and wait till 11.30 then call him.He answered my call and i ask him where is him.He told me he already reached ipoh.I was damn surprise and happy when i knew it.Wait him come my home and have breakfast after that.Actually i said i want eat MC'D,but there was fulled.We decided go eat pizza at tesco cause dear need cut hair there.After order the meal dear leave me alone in pizza hut.><
After finished meal we go buy some fruits back home,coz i want make fruit juice for my dear :)
A aunty jump the queue when at the counter.IShhhh..so shui larrr ..bully me ><

skippppp

Dear bought a new dress for me on Saturday.Wuhoooo..i like it so damn much.Thx dear alot :*
Finally,we have breakfast at MC'D on this day.Heheee..i love FRENCH FRIEDS so muchh.
After that take my lovely AINO to repair.The flash light spoiled jor.I duno izit i drop it on the floor and spoiled it.I'm sorry..my pity AINO. :'(

skippppp

Having dinner with dear's family at nite.I was so nervous for something.URGG ><
Go watch The Karate Kid at 11.55pm.It was fulled.wow... o.O

i like the cup :)

HE is addicted on POKER now.Freaking moody bout it.Once i think bout it i'll feel so speechless and dunwan talk with him.Aikss..just let it bah.Hmmm..it better than addicted on other things.
Today was the second time i drop my tears when he leave.I'm sorry,i really can't control.
Oh Yea..i admit i'm so selfish when i'm in love.I dun like other gals disturb my boy except my close frens.I really hate it so much.Damn it!

Last, i love you no matter what happened.GUD LUCK for ur exam.I'll wait u back.<3

lazy to update my blog recently.Everythings like normal.Wait hubby for 4 days and enjoy my weekend with him.

I learn car again at last wed.I pass my car trial.Have some thing happened before i back,it make me lose all my confidence.I hate that uncle. :'(

Celebrate my bro's birthday last saturday.I surprise that i can settle all things without other ppl help me.weee :)
This is the 1st time i bring my boy friend home to meet my relative and there was damn many relative that day.I feel so nervous and i know my boy too.We keep busy bout buy things and prepare things.I feel so sorry for my frens,coz i no much time to acc them. :( Anyway that was a happy nite for me and my frens.^^

Dear have test this two weeks,heartache alot cause see him study till so late.I realise that i care his study too.Not only care him,but care his parents and our future too.Oh yea..i getting mature and mature with him.I try to dunwan mad with him because of no time acc me.I know he so tired after do revision.Try to let him relax after do revision so that won't feel toilsome. :)

We getting better and better.less quarrel,less feel moody and many.Feel happy with it.I never jealous other ppl cause how they sweet cause i know the way he love me is different.I won't compare u with others,i swear.ILY.<3

everything will be fine :)

Hmmm..one week din updated blog again.Damn lazy recently.There have many problems had to face recently..but now settle all dy.Finally can get my simple life back :)

Feel sorry that canot beside Hyan when her birthday.Hmm..but i think she have lot fun and surprise there with her new frens ^^

Hang with dear at friday.SUSHI again..god..we both like sushi damn much.weeee..i found my sushi kaki dy :D After sushi shopping with dear..enjoy the time with him.
Fetch my parents to take bus on sat.they had to out station for two weeks..Hmm..feel like so lonely when see they leave. :'(

Celebrate dear's b.day with his sweet family after that.Chat for a looong time with dear's family.I'm jst like a part of his family..feel warm with it :) Gave dear a small surprise after celebrate with his family.I hope he will happy wad i did for him.

Learn drive car again tis morning.This is the second time.Damn nervous when start,but after that i feel everythings is fine there.oh yeahh..i hope can get my car licence faster.I want fetch my dear^^

Feel like dunwan let dear leave me today.I dunno why..but just dunwan let him leave.Eventhough this is the N times he leave,but today really like want be more selfish and dun let him go.Gonna crazy for him.

There have some problems between us.But it all jst because we love each other toooo much.I know we can back like last time or better than last time.Time can change everythings and make us forget bout those sad things.I know the reason that u mad with me.I'll try my best to prove that what i said to you.Happy birthday to you my Only MAN.I love you with all my heart.<3

busy.

looooooooooong time din update my blog.i'm pretty busy this few days.
hmmm..gonna forget wat i did in this few days dy @@
i wait for a long time,and finally dear is coming back to me on Thursday.when he told me he gonna come back i was so tired and sleepy one.but i canot slp.He keep call me slp but i really canot fall asleep.I text him that i canot slp and he replied me and said he know.I ask him why,he said coz he is coming back..so i excited till canot slp.LOL..bt it's true lar.. (≧◡≦)
We surpose back home early coz thought want go make passport.But finally mum not free..so that we just stay at hum.hmmph~
play badminton with dear at evening..LOL..i'm kinda tired after that.But so happy with it.I love to spend my time with him. ❤❤
Have a gathering with shit gang on friday at MOON RIVER.We go to have a pray before we go gathering coz we like so unlucky recently.I said i wan eat pizza when we're at MOON RIVER.We want to call delivery,but we're too late.. :( Dear said he take me go pizza hut and buy.Weeeee..he treat me so good.^^ When we reached pizza hut,it aldy closed.ARRHHH~me and dear damn moody larr...hmmmp~After that we NG GAM YUEN..so that we go Burger King.ahaha..
After finished ate the burger,i play PS2 with dear.I keep look at dear after i lose and he said he will let me~hahas XP
After that brother and his frens back home,the bought some DVD back too.Me and dear choose jor CHUCKY[i dunno wat the movie's name,jst know that doll call chucky] and back room to watch it.It damn scary and Dear know me scare..so that we change to SCARY MOVIE.It damn funny and make us keep laugh.ahaha...

skipppppp~

Go take my jusco voucher at Greentown on Saturday.After that go JJ with my darling.I want to buy a present for my sweetie Hyan for her b.day and buy something for darling.We go S&J to see present and Hyan and Apple was in S&J too.I canot see them there coz i'm concentrate to the keychain.I heard someone say hello to me suddenly and I look at her.That's Apple. Hyan hit me from back when i'm talking with Apple.LOL..i was get shock coz i really din see dou them at all. ==
Me and dear gar gar walk to other place coz dunwan let Hyan know we buy present for her.We go supermarket there and bought some drinks.We back to S&J again and i choose present for Hyan.Hmmmph..take a long time to choose the present and my dear was so tired there...heartache alot ><
Finally we can back and dear dunwan buy his things dy coz he so tired.

SKIPPPP~

Have a gathering with all my beloved at nite.We want to give a surprise to Hyan.We want to celebrate her b.day for her coz we can't beside her when she b.day.Dear come my home and tot wan wait Zhun come fetch us.Zhun said he might be late,so that we go by ourself.It was raining and we have an accident again.Owrhh~second time.I'm get shock again TT
Dear go chat with that ppl and try to settle it.I waiting dear in the car and text Carmen to told her i'll be late.We back dear's home and call Zhun come fetch us.It was so lucky that dear not drive till very very fast.If not maybe i canot attend to the gathering.I feel got bit dizzy after the accident T^T

SKIPPPP~

Finally,we reached the place where we gathering.We standing at outside there coz nid wait for milky.We take the cake and walk into the cafe.Unluckily,we let Hyan see dou jor ><
But she's still feel touched.ahaaa~keep chatting with them.I'm so enjoy it :)
back home at 12.30++ Wow~Barroom SINGLE NITE that day.Many ppl there.Anyway,i'm not so interest to club without my dear and all ji mui. :)


ps:/sometimes...an argument can make us more understand,more care and more love each other.We getting closer and closer. we belong to each other.ILY.<3

random.

Attended cousin's wedding dinner at last sat.They back from australia.Long time no see them and i forget what they look like,coz they move to australia when i'm still a little gal.i outing with dear and back home late dy.it jst left half an hour for me to prepare =x
Damn many ppl marry this few days.hmmph..when only my turn?LOL

dear is addicted to play PS2 with sis and my little cousin.Always back home so late becoz of it.LOL..anyway..thx a lot coz he always stay beside me.

Sunday,a day he nid to leave me again.as usual,i didn't cry at all..even got feel like wanna drop my tears when he say bye to me.Hope can see him soon.really need him so much.sighh.

Learn to drive car today.it damn scary for me.That uncle called me drive myself when he reached my home.LOL..i'm first time drive leh.luckily nothing happen on da road.If not i can go paradise dy :O
He teach me drive to the way when test.hmmm..i feel damn easy geh.But dunno when test i can handle it anot..God Bless me.
back to the place where learn car to learn parking.that uncle call me do it myself after few times.LOL..again..i cnt memorise those things larr..stupid me.
i'm gonna bump against the pillar.God Man.i can't think anything that time.My mind is blank.hmmmm><
Wed need learn again..damn scare.hope everything fine.

I hope those ppl i love can safety and happy forever.Please,nightmare far away from me.Dun disturb my life and dun disturb those ppl i love.

trouble.

wed,might be a happy day for me.Dear is cuming back coz class on fri cancelled dy.He can acc me more.
But..smtg happened in my family.i can't predict that it'll happened to me.God..what should i do?I'm freaking confused.I dunno what shud i do and wat can i do.I'm gonna crash coz of it.
I'm appreciate that my dear is stay with me and help me so much.he calm me down and i feel more secure when he is beside me.He just like a part of my family.I know i couldn't lose him,coz i used to be with him dy.
Well..is that money is important than happy/family?The answer will be NO for me.You'll be understand if u have the same trouble with me.Money can help many ppl,but it can impair too.Many things will become different after u rich.Dun jealous those rich ppl , coz they had to face those problem that u doesn't need to face.

I just need a happy and steady family.I love my family damn much.

the way we communicate :)

Out with carmen and mr.wong yesterday.we go watch movie gether.We watch Ice Kacang Puppy Love.LOL..i noe we so outdated..now only go see..there're jst few ppl in da cinema.==
We go sing K before watch movie.Meet Alice,Sabrina,Yin san and their fren there.
We take photo in da toilet before leave.Used many time to take photo.LOL.

3 of us❤


me and carmen❤


me and alice❤


carmen and alice❤

time past so fast when outing.wuhoo..frens..i love u guys :)


Dear's class end so early today.weeee..he can acc me^^
Actually i'm planning to go kampar on Wed.I ask my bro wheather when he free and take me go there.He said Thurs he no class,so that day only take me there.I tell dear bout that.Dear call me dunwan go dy..coz he still have class at Fri..we have no much time gether,so i better stay at ipoh and wait him back.Hmmm..i damn moody after he call me dun go.I get mad at him. Hyan said she Fri no class,so can back ipoh at Thurs,so i decided dunwan go dy...after that dear call me guai guai wait him back.I said i dunwan wait him,i wan wait Hyan.And i said i wan Tolak his Markah.Then we start to chat bout tolak and tambah markah for whole day.he ask me wheather got Bonus anot and he dunwan fail.ahaha...my dear so cuteeeee one larr XP He make me angry him at nite.I said wan tolak markah..he said canot tolak,want tambah..but i said tak boleh..haha :D
Anyway..tis is the way we comumunicate and i feel like tis is better than angry him or argue with him.we getting crazy and crazy when together.
Thx for ur sweeeeet msg before i slp.ILY :)

Friday coming soon..YEAH~~waiting for u,darling❤

second time.

15 May

nothing special in da morning.out with dear at 6pm.he come fetch me after fetch his little sister.spend my time with him again :)
mok call us yam cha at nite.METRO again..Kok is appear with joyce suddenly.^^ Joyce sure very happy larr..coz she miss kok like hell. :)
we're going back home so early that nite..actually i wan go pologround,but it so dangerous coz jst me and dear,so we didn't go dy T^T
Dear's phone and wallet left in my bag..hmmm..luckily still can msn.Dear acc me till 4am++..He said want buy smtg for me.i'm very happy with it but i dunwan waste dear geh money.When u work u must give me all of ur salary ya^^
I'll wait for ur car as our anniversary present :) hehee

16 May

text dear after i woke up.He came to take his phone and wallet before i attend for my Eng Class.He told me his dad called his bring me to have breakfast with them.Hmmm..i hate my eng class larrr~~i wan eat breakfast with dear arr ><

skipp~~

out with dear after i back from my class.we having our lunch gether.After that i help him check his luggage..keep ask him still got wad haven keep.Hmmm..feel got a bit ng seh dak when hugging him :( but it's okay to me,maybe tis is the 2nd time he leave me..so i din cry at all.^^

hmm..very miss him in rainy day.i always sang a song to him when we're gether.Dear arr..i know u oso miss me much..haha..so ngam larr :D
Damn heartache when u told me u're alone there..hope can be there with u.Take care urself ya..Drink more water.
You're the one i need.I aldy tattoo ur name in my heart.米修❤

sweet day :)

weee..today have a very very very sweet and happy day with darling^^
we need to fetch dear's sis and bro back from skul today,so need wake up early.That sui dear slp till late dyy..hmmm..my zhan zhu lai cha mou jor larrr :( suen lerr..forgive dear ler..coz can with him i aldy feel satisfy. :) i realise that dear yun loi so GAN one.hahaha..coz he did jor smtg when fetch his sis and bro XP
we have our lunch with his family.chat many things at car gether and laugh till non stop :D
dear's mum said jor smtg and make me feel so dizzy..allah~ @@

skipp~

we go police station after that..coz dear's bro lost his wallet,need go report..Hmm..1st time entered police station,din feel any afraid..maybe i din did wrong and dear is there with me :) damn hot inside the police station...really got a bit beh tahan == lol..duno got open air-con anot geh.We wait for so loooong and finally gao dim dy^^
Dear said feel wanna eat sushi suddenly.We sent his bro home and go to JJ.weeeee :D
dear ask me if let me choose i'll choose sushi or steamboat..and i ans him i'll choose sushi,coz i really love it crazily.Then he ask me feel what would he choose,i ans him got sushi geh steamboat XP he said he'll choose sushi too after that.wow..i found my sushi kaki dy..ahaha.. :D
take photo after we finished.

me + dear


weeee :P



we go walk around after that.keep chat many things and we keep laugh and laugh.
ahahaha..i sot dyy and actually dear unhappy with smtg,but he see me laugh like this he oso laugh dy.Yeah =D
i like to laugh with dear.i like to see he laugh too..coz he jst will lost control when with me :))
feel more and more close with dear now.yea..i hope we can keep like this till the end.
hmmm..will u feel bored with me if i always say imy or ily?I know u won't..ahaha..tat's y i always say it to u.lalala XP
thx u for tolerate with me,i can feel that u try to more care me.Remember wat u told me yesterday.I feel dun wanna let u go again :( I need u so muchh larrr......but i'll try to be more independent.I'll try to listen to u,dun let u worry. :)
Last,i heart u and thx for everythings u gave me.❤

simple post

hmmm..few days din update again..
there have many things happened this few days..happy and unhappy~
dear back from kampar there at tuesday..i'm freaking happy..i miss him muchh...Hyan back at tat day too...wuhooo :) i tot wan go pm with dear geh..but so late dy :( but it's okay..he beside me aldy enuff dy^^hug him tite tite when meet him..coz really miss him lottt.. :)

have a big problem with dear at the next day.it make both of us very suffer and moody.i tot i'll lose him this time.but luckily...we both oso NG SEH DAK each other..hmmm..moody for whole day and finally we sweet back before we slp.. :)

skippp~

text him after i awoke..hehee..then meet him at afternoon ^^ Nite have gathering with frens..but dear's parents call us go dinner with them :( hmmm..feel got a bit ng seh dak go..coz got many things wanna blah with them.I'm sorry guys..especially Hyan.Left her alone there. ><
Very GAN JIONG when eat with dear's parents..they ask me many things and make me feel so shy.But i'm very happy coz they treat me as a part of their family member gam. :))

skippp~

after argue with dear yesterday,we like more close dy..Keep laugh and laugh gether..yea..i love it muchh.Dear text me and told me smtg when i'm buying things with his sis.Sooooo sweet and plz dun forget what u said arr..if not bengg u gah XP
Chat many things with dear today.He ask me:"dear,u know..we're champion before we come to this world." XP damn funny larrr..and i canot forget it.heheeee.
hmm..time to slp..weeee..i love ur hug,dear.U're my only husband.

dear sang this for me today.touchh.i heart u dear❤

1st day without you.

hmmm..i'm so sad tis morning.coz i promised dear will shopping with him before he leave..but last nite i slp at 6am..i can't wake in the morning..and when i text dear he said next week only shopping with me..i'm very very regret tat time and heartache so muchh. ><
Dear come find me awhile before he go kampar..we chat for awhile and i gave him a hug before he leave.i try my best to control my tears,coz dear said he dunwan see me cry and finally i did it :)
after he leave i have cry for awhile coz really can't used with it.but after that i'm okay dy.
dear text me after he reach.He said he hope me there and hlp him keep his things..weeeeee..
He said he like his new room much and his roommate was so frendly..hmm..i'm glad to heard that.coz i really worry he can't used with it. :)

Hyan has trouble bout her room..lolz..pity her..hmm..luckily now settle jor jek =D
i'm gonna miss u muchh lar sui porr..wait for ur starbucks coffee arr XP
rmb find my dear if have any problem.gud luck to u❤


darling arrr..really miss u muchh muchh lar..but i'll be fine.dun worry me..enjoy ur new llife.i trust u and waiting for ur ring.heart you :)

life

many days din update my blog.damn lazyy man.
nothing special tis few days.i spend my time with my dearest tis few days..coz he gonna leave me.
time past so fast.i hope i can get a TIME MACHINE to stop the time.i really unwilling apart with him and my precious frens.how can i get it?i really need it. :'(
i miss the time gathering with my gang and my close frens too.we cannot meet always dy..i'm gonna miss u all muchh muchh.sighh.

DEAR,
u really gonna leave me after few hours.i dunno how to describe my feeling now.all the memories of us flashing back now.i care u so much,i really do.i'm sorry coz can't control my tears drop front of u.i know u heartache alot.i know u care me much too even u din say it out.Sometimes..i hope i can be more selfish and do smtg let u stay beside me.but i'm failed.Ur happiness is more important.I want see u smile.I like to laugh with u.You're the 1st person who really changed me.I know u very worry bout me.I promise i will always take care myself.I'll learn to be more independent when u're not here.I dunwan u always worry bout me and make u cannot concentrate on study.I'll try my best to control my tears.I'll try my best to not always make u sad and i'll be more mature.I should happy coz u'll back every weekend.I'll listen to u always.I'll tell u everythings of mine everyday..so that u can know everythings of mine :) You let me feel i'm a part of ur family.What u told me before i'll re keep in my mind. I'll learn how to cook and will cook nice food for u^^ I dunno wad can i say else..coz really many things wanna tell u.Wad i wanna let u know right now..i'm not ur gf but ur fiancee.I'll wait u back.I trust u with all my heart.You in my heart always.I'll miss u every moment.I heart u deeply,Tan Kah Weng❤


Hyan leong,
gal,we know each other around 8 years dy.we same class since we're standard 4.1st time not go skul gether.i miss the time when we're always gether.Even many things happened between us..but i'm still appreciate we're best frens.Thx u for always beside me when i'm in trouble.Enjoy ur college life..take care urself..i'll miss you always❤


start my new life soon.Hope everything will be fine :)

the late post :)

30th April

very happy today,coz i'm going pc fair and looking for my new babyy.
wee..go with hyan,mok,joyce and kok.Dear need go kampar to find his new room so din go pc fair with us.=[ we go eat breakfast before we go pc fair.dear call me when we going eat breakfast,he say he coming back to ipoh but he din go pc fair.

skipp~~

there have no much ppl today..yeah~i like it.no need so hot XD
me and hyan seaching for our DELL and finally we found it.^^but.............hyan get her flavorite purple colour,and my white colour is out of stock..TT damn disappoint lar me.hmmmm..

that sales gal tell me that white colour is damn nice but it will change to yellow colour after a long time.i think for so loooong and i text dear and tell him bout white colour is out of stock and dunno want how.dear say he come find me..weee..he make me smile when i'm so down.
hmm..i decided to choose black colour before dear reach..i need do a decision in a short time coz i scare black colour will out of stock too.i'm sry dear,coz i din wait u come.=[

skipp~~

walk around with dear and them.bought a LV skin for my DELL babyy^^recently damn like LV.lolz..sei lorrr~no much money to buy it lar =[

skipp~~

damn sad after back home,coz my internet got problem..i cnt use it.wuwuwu...suen lar.go dear's home at nite,coz need him hlp me stick the skin for babyy.after that i use dear's broadband to log in FB awhile.we use the webcam to take photo too...weee..smthing happened and we laugh till cnt stop.hehes,tat's a secret between me and dear XD after that back home and text with dear till 3am++..thx for alwiz acc me till so late and i heart u muchh❤

1st May

wow..time past so fast..today was the 1st day of may.dear's gonna leave after few days.i'm freakinq NG SEH DAK him.we meet everyday and stick together always since we gether.OMG..i'll be crazy if i can't meet him for 4 days.even we jst couple,but we like aldy together so looong.we know each other so much and will know wat the other 1's thinking even we din say out.I rmb tat when we're still in genting,we stand at the man-made river which in indoor one together,we both also need a coin to make a wish.he din tell me bout it but i aldy gave him a coin.it's so amazing rite?We have a same wish too.OMG.i've never meet a guy tat know me so much like him.he is the 1st and he'll be LAST.izit too early to say he is the last?NO,i dun think so.i'm clearly know wat's on my mind.i'll try my best to hold the relationship between us.
Dear,u said that u'll giv me a steady and warm family in future.i trust u and i'll wait u back.i'll miss u always and heart more with my every breathe.

BREEZE cafe with my gang at nite.din chat so muchh today,coz the problem of places..ishhh
No much time to let us gethering always , i miss the time when we're still skul so muchh..we meet everyday and chat from morning till noon..hmmm=[
anyway,i love u guys deep and miss u all always❤

2nd May

wake at 1pm++ today.dreamed of dear last nite.weee..since we gether i dream of him everyday.== but it so sweeet for me and him^^dear so pig lar..always wake so late,wan me wait him..bt i'm willing to wait him everyday XD
go dear's home after i bath..use his broadband again..weeee..have a lot of sweet memory today^^we laugh till cnt stop again.yea..i love him deeper and deeper..spend my whole day with him,and we hav dinner with frens at nite.

skipp~~

having our dinner at 2plus1..lolz..steamboat again.but i'm enjoyed with it..today me and dear so free,coz they cook for us.hahas XP but suddenly rain when we're eating..ishhhh..so unlucky. we need to change to another place.it's freaking hot there and the rain stop after a moment.lolz..hmm..suen lar..we continue to eat ours food.^^

skipp~~

i call dear look to the sky becoz there have stars.something flash back.tat's a secret for me and him :) many memories with him and he is fulled in my mind.hmmm...
take photo few photo before back.

we all❤


me and dear❤

2nd May

nothing special today.din meet dear for whole day..miss him muchh..somemore his phone got problem.canot text with me..i lie on the bed whlole day..miss him like hell =[
he call me act him fetch his sis back ..actually i want go 1..i aldy change my cloth..but i ask him after fetch his sis back we go where..he say fetch me home.hmmmmm....jst half and hour..how i tell mum i go where?then i tell him i dunwan go dy.and after that i cried.i dunno what i cried for..jst feel very down.sighhhh.
after that msn with him.dad call me out for dinner after that.i tell him i wan bring laptop along coz i wan chat with him,but he dunwan.i know he what he thinking,but i'm sure i'll bored like hell..that's y i wan bring laptop.we argue coz this.hmmmmm..sent him a photo to TAM him.i text him and call him on9 when i'm dinnering coz need to wait for the meal.He called me and tell me he at outside.Even he din say any sweet words but i aldy feel sweet^^

skipp~~
finished my dinner and back home,i call him and tell him that i aldy balik rumah.he said he jst reach his grandparents there.hmmm..pity lar my dear.
he text me around 12am.weee..finally can text with him..miss him damn much.
skipp~~
have a big quarrel before we slp.he said smtg that really hurt me.hurt till canot cry it out.very suffer.
can u care my feeling?can u think wat i want?do u ever think u're wrong too?i changed for u,but i get?try to think if i say those words to u wat u'll feel.i din blame u at all,but i get hurt.
last,i heart u always.

rainy day.

stay at home for whole day,waiting for a guy.
he is busying for his personal things.
damn boring at home.haizzz...

have an argue again..i try to act nothing,but u keep hurting me.
well..maybe we too love each other,din meet for whole day both oso moody.
yea..i freakinq miss u and need you.Am i really not und u?so did u try to und me?
why i will moody?why i still text u even ur reply is so FU HIN?
why i always drop my tears for u?i totally changed becoz of u..can u do something to make me feel secure?i dun like argue with you.
Even i say i angry u,but i've never really angry u.i jst very sad,do u und?maybe i really very serious with u.so that i very scare i'll lost u.i care u very muchhh.i hope u beside me 24hours.i know it's impossible..and i have to apart with u for 4 years even i unwilling..
anyway,i'll wait u back and try my best to dun let myself change my heart.
no promise between us but jst action to prove it.❤


today i've read a gal's blog.i read it two times and i cried for two times.
her bf was has an accident,and he was dead.he jst 19 years old this year.
and the accident happened because of a brainless guy go through a red light!!
why god wan treat a sweet couple like this huh?why tat brainless guy din die huh??it's unfair.i freaking upset for that gal..i hope she'll be fine.

After i read her blog i more need u,dear.
i appreciate tat u're with me. i heart you❤

first post :)

WOO..i have use few days to edit my blog..and now finally i finished it . :)

21st-23rd april i have a sweet trip with my dear and frens.
i overnite at dear's home on 20th april.i help him to pack his luggage :)
we are freakinq excided..lalala


we wake at 6am on 21st morning and start to prepare our thing.
dear's mummy so gud..buy bread for me and dear,coz she scare we will hungry :)
she fetch us to derick's home before fetch dear's bro & sis skul too..
we go genting around 7am++

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we reached genting around 10am.
we had to wait till 2pm++ only can check in

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i have an arguement with dear and he leave me there with his frens >< after that i walk around with joyce[thx for acc me ya❤]

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finally can check in and i same room with dear.
we keep argue and i ran out from room..he came out to find me and called me back room and i told him i dunwan back.then he jst go back to room.i tot he angry dy and dunwan care me dy,but actually he is going back to take jacket for me coz he scare me get a cold.yiii..make me so touched,but i didn't let him know XD

skip~~

we took few photos in room.


we went snow world at nite..weee..damn cold man..
but so sweet with him..we blow love shape out in the snow world XP

took photo before leave :)


skip~~

after we back room have another arguement with dear again =[
we chat for a long time bout our problem.Anyway,i know i should not always like that,i'm sorry dear. =[
after that we're sweet than before..we hav lot of funs together.


the 2nd day we stay at outdoor for half day and ..play many games that i've never play before with dear..we took many pictures too ^^weeeeeeeee.❤

ferries wheel❤


skip~~

slp so early at nite coz we both also very tired. :)

we woke so late at last day.i tot we're late..but actually they all also same.hahas.
after breakfast i shopping with dear and buy smtg for his family.
we back around 4.30 ..i've did smtg to make dear so sweet when on the way back to ipoh XD
very ng seh dak my trip.


dear,even i always make u sad..but i really heart u very deeeeeep.
please forgive me if i did anything wrong kay?
be my LAST.❤



ps:this blog create for you.❤